Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Happy but Feeling Guilty

Today, keepers especially got their Mother's Day miracle a few weeks early...our daughter who we lost contact with over 5 years ago wrote to them!! She left a comment on their blog that said they respected Keepers and are proud of keepers, that the abuse we feared she had endured did indeed happen, and sickeningly from a member of our own household it appears. She did not name him but it is obvious.

To this daughter and to her younger sister who well have endured the same abuse, I can only say how sorry I am for not recognizing anything being wrong. For not being there to protect you. For keepers I could not as I was a child when they were a child but my own daughters had a father who let them down in this area. I will never forgive myself for that.

To Munchkin, please know that Pop loves you and always will and sincerely apologizes for not being your protector when you needed me. I also want to thank you for easing some of Keepers guilt, some of their pain, because now they know that you do not hate them, that your anger has been tempered, and that the hope of holding you in their arms is now a possibility again.

May your healing continue, I pray J is still there at your side, being your protector.

All my love and respect

Pop

13 comments:

jumpinginpuddles said...

just sending hugs thats all

imo said...

thanks JIP, appreciate the thought

jm

Medicoglia, RN said...

Sending hugs as well...for you and for Keepers. ((((((hugs)))))

Anonymous said...

thank you fallen angels, there is always room for hugs!!

john michael and keepers

Anonymous said...

how are you sleeping?

Anonymous said...

I am sleeping just fine, keepers and I put in a good 18 hours a day and when bedtime gets here i conk out.

jumpinginpuddles said...

oh give it a break m/kin and go see your Therapist please grrrrr now you are annoying us

imo said...

Hi JIP

Thanks for the support, I know there are people who know and trust KKCO and rightly so, just wish we knew what happened to her.

JM

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Anonymous said...

Ok, Grace has made me hold my tongue for the past few days, but after seeing the post this morning (that has since been deleted) I need to say a few things....

First, I will not call you Munchkin, because most of us don't believe that is who you are. You are a stranger, so that is what I will call you.

Dear Stranger...

You have no idea of the support that would surround you if you would do one simple thing. Prove that you are who you say you are. If you are truly a "survivor" you will understand everyone's need for this proof.

If you truly are a "sister survivor", the attacks you've made on Keepers and others would never be happening. Stranger, you might say you haven't attacked Keepers, but you have--any attack on John is a direct attack on Keepers and you know this--which is why you are doing it.

The network of survivors here is strong--we could lend you some of our strength but we cannot do that until we truly know who you are and what your motives are.

We stand strong in support of Keepers and John. Stranger, your attacks have only made us more sure of our support of them. Your evil plan is backfiring on you, so why not give up the plan--go fly a kite, bake a cake or watch Oprah--any of those things would be a better use of your time.
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Grace is amazed that I was able to say all of that without using one curse word! How about that? ;-)

John & Keepers, we're here and we believe in you both!

-CJ

imo said...

CJ...You Rock!!!

Thank you for your support of Keepers and myself.

john michael and keepers

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jumpinginpuddles said...

have been thinking that the person writing these letters is actually after attention good or bad so maybe just as an idea giving no mroe feedback might actually be the healthiest thing to do.
It is is obvious this person isnt in a helathy place and no amount of attack or anything will make them healthy, we need to be the example of healthy and stepo away from any further discussion with this person as we believethis person is so unsafe its scary.